No, I do not have a best friend. I’ve only got a friend who I discuss
my love life with. I talk to her about my crushes and the stupid situations
that I often think of. She makes me believe that she listens to them intently
but no, she doesn’t. She listens only when it’s something that she is related
to. I know, this will hurt, but this is the TRUTH. I do not have a best friend;
I just have a friend who I text when I have no one else to talk to. When
everyone else if offline, I check if you are available. Yes, of course there is
nothing to talk about. And the fact that we meet almost every day makes this
be. And no, I do not have a best friend.
You say you know me better than anyone else. I say that too. But when
I think about it, it feels like you do not know me AT ALL! Do you know what I dream
of? Yes, you may say. You have never heard any of my dreams completely. I start
to tell about it and somebody else pings you and you turn to them. Because any
way, I’m going to stand there, in the same place to continue the story I started.
During the break that you let me think about my dream, before blabbing it out,
I changed the plot. So, no, you do not know what I dream of.
Do you know who I think of before sleeping? Do you know what I do
when I absolutely do nothing productive? Do you know how I feel about my mother
and about my family? You don’t. I had tried telling about this to you, coz' I thought
you might want to listen. But no, you didn’t. The girl who hates you had to
tell you about the reason behind it and it was much more interesting than my
sad and complicated background.
It might hurt a lot, but the truth cannot be misled. I was alone
before, I am now, and somewhere I know, that I will be till the grave. I say it
now, without hesitation, that you my friend know me more than any other person
alive, but no, you are not my best friend.
P.S: When the writer inside you wants to come out and there’s not even
a single drop of pain inside you, you need to create one: Over thinking helps.
#StyZie
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